Showing posts with label Personal. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Personal. Show all posts
2010/01/16
//NADA, NIENTE//
I just lost a reader and I don't recieve any comments here. I'm not looking for popularity but I want to share my thoughts, what I like, etc. and getting no response at all is not that motivating as you probably can imagine. I'm thinking of giving this thing a rest because I don't want do produce another irrelevant blog on the Internet.
2010/01/09
//SHAKESPEARE//
It took me a while to produce this. I've been thinking about how to put this thought into words.
This is about God. I keep thinking about this human phenomen. I am an atheist. I can't say there is no God for sure because I can't prove that. But you can't prove the opposite either. So I say, I believe, I assume, I decide for myself that there is no God. No supernatural power, that created humanity, the plants and animals, and the world we all live in. I'm convinced, that all there is the nothing but the roaring, hustling, whistling sound of the silent universe. Nietsche called atheism nihilism. But to me, that's not right. Life may be a hopeless chaos, a coincidence, just a weird result of the endless evolution. People, societies, emotions, burdens, relations, beginnings, and endings, It is terrible, it is hard, for some all the time, for others now and then.
It is a well-known fact that the amount of religious people in developing countries is generally higher than in industrial nations. Life is hard there, in the developing countries, I heard. The hardes, probably. Having a hard life, people ask themselves "Why?". And to this question, only God is the answer. You couldn't list all the things that lead to the circumstances a person finds him/herself in that very moment he/ she wonders about life, but it would be the correct thing to do.
God describes every human's flaw. It is giving a reason to all this chaos, a destination, and taking fear, having company in the loneliest moments, and holding out hope for everyone, justifiying, and encouraging,
God is also accepting that there are no answers to everything, especially to the question about God. What/who is God? It is not a common question in that sense. People tend to accept that God is simply something beyond their perceiption. And they don't go further. This is what keeps God alive.
But being reasonable, and accepting the evolution theory although we can't explain eeverything here, is what Nietzsche calls the hardest thought. It means realising that humans are nothing but a coincidence, a sudden occurance on the surface of the earth, a triviality. We are not intended, planned, created, destined. We are here. And I assume that almost every religious person would find him/herself lonely, confused, lost, broken, empty, guideless and worthless.
But I say: this is nothing to worry about! For me, it is OK to be worthless, to be a meaningless being on earth's surface. I don't mind being an invisible spot in the big picture of time and space, because to a few wonderful people I am a valuable person and to some people I am the whole picture. And this is why I don't need a God.
The idea of God has shown to be unneceessary. We need to be honest with ourselves and to others and we need to admit that we are afraid. We need accept and we need to give help. And we need to remember that there are others around us who share the same miserable lonelyness and desperation, that they are asking the same question. We need give shelter and hope to others, we need to eat and make love. This is all we can do. We need to give up God.
When I see the sea, the sun, a beautiful river or a beautiful person, when I experience love or luck, I do not think of God. I think: What a beautiful coincidence!
picture via http://myminddroppings.wordpress.com/2009/10/09/almost-nobody-truly-believes-in-god/ (seems to be an interesting article btw, although I haven't read it fully yet)
2009/12/30
//JEWELS OF TRIVIALITY//
It's been a while, since you heard of me, I know, I know. I've been so busy with life, I completely forgot about my virtual one. There was lots of stuff to do for school before the holidays, the 'pre-finals' had to be written, that means two assignments à 5 hours and one à 4 hours in english, art and history. Okay, I see, this is nothing of relevance to you.
I've been spending more time on tumblr, mostly posting pictures, but now and then a random note or a quote or so, too. Tumblr is way easier and quicker than blogger, you don't need to register yourself each time you want to post.
So, tomorrow is New Year's Eve, my favourite among all parties. I never like Christmas so much because at the end of the day it is mostly about presents and the atmosphere could never really get me going. I like giving presents to the ones I love, but I hate that this christmas is the one day I am supposed to. With all the things I was occupied with in december, including being sick, so many visitings at so many doctors, learning, homeworks, preperations, I just couldn't find any time left to buy presents. And I refused to go searching for them on purpose because, to me, that is missing the point. And, in addition to that, I (being an atheist) don't like Christmas as it celebrates the birth of Jesus- which too many people seem to forget over hunting for present (which, btw, according to the newspaper located here, a high amount of people exchange after the big day). This is why for me, there was never reason to 'celebrate' something I didn't even believe in.
I give when I feel like, and I don't belive in god(s).
As for New Year's Eve, oh, I just love fireworks. Thar glittery, sparkling bangbanbang, and the oohs, and the aahs in the cold and the dark, and this senseless energy that fades already in the morning hours and all resolutions postponed to next year or later. The german word for New Year's Eve is Sylvester. Beautiful, eh? Well, yes, I prefer crackers to cradles, I guess.
Speaking about Sylvester and resolutions, to me, it's the same shit like giving presents because it's christmas. What if I notice a bad habit in march? Do I have to wait till the end of the year till I am going to change it? As I said, senseless, but human.
So, this is me not resolving, just daydreaming, as usual:
2009 was awful, all in all.
2010 will be aw, learning for finals, finals- finally, finishing school, maybe going abroad,sewing, drawing, laughing, running, dancing, losing false friends, learning new languages, writing, traveling, wedges, american appaarel, zara, flowers, flats, glasses, hair, underwear, seaside, island, water, sunbathing, reading, sunglasses, one first and last careless summer, eating, cute dresses and short shorts, no more teachers, lipsticks, tight jeans and white shirts, good music, new music, sun rising, and sun setting, perfume, kissing, dresses, upside- down crosses, bags, darkness and lights, movies, singing aloud although I'm not good at that, magazines, or not, architecture, art exhibitions, dots, stripes, black and white, long skirts, taking more photos, less internet, haha, clothes, jewelry, new friends, tights, coats, scarves, the universe, the moon- always, goodbyes, and hellos, popcorn (always and everywhere- almost), beds, toes, tears, tigers, whales, touches, concerts, cold and warm and everything in between, breath in- breath out...
This is an endless list, coincidence will sweep me away, maybe to some of those places above, maybe not. But as you know, detours show us the best places and people.
Feel free to leave your thoughts, what do you think, what's your opinion and so on?
Status quo: I'm currently...
- reading: the other hand by chris cleave
- listening to: new moon soundtrack (don't assume, I like the movie, I don't didn' even like the books except for the first, but the music is quite good)
-wanting: oh, just peace
-feeling: tired, but I can't seem to fall asleep anyway, so what!
Happy new year everyone!!
2009/09/22
I love outsiders and I will be an outsider forever.
I've had some trouble blogging lately, not only because I am comletely stressed out and hardly find the time to post something, but also because I thought about the blogging itself a lot.
If you don't want your blog to be about your personal style and life, it is hard to run a decent fashion blog. There are already quite a few other sites and blog that inform fashion- interested people about what runs on the runway, what is going on, where and with who.
So I find i kinda lame and unnecessary to post something about the current runway shows and the ones I especially like. Plus, everybody does this and it is not original anymore. Blogging has become so popular, is so wide-spread, everybody seems to have a blog and much of them are so much alike they don't mean anything anymore.
As for me, I always need a purpose or a reason to do something. When I started this blog I wandet to show and share my personal opinion on random fashion iems, runway shows, etc. But today, I feel exhausted of all this and don't see the point in it anymore.
Trends, must-haves, no-gos- almost every blog talk about the same things. Doesn't that bores you guys? I want to see original, astonishing, funny, remarkable, interesting stes and I want to be one myself. I am absolutely against mainstream and I will struggle against it.
So, I am 'planning' changes around here- as you can see (hear) I removed the ipos again, I am still not sure wether I like it here or not... tell me what you think!
xoxo
2009/09/06
I am
As I am heading towards the end of school (and still trying to wrap my mind around that fact), I think about the "after"...
I guess a lot of people at my age can relate, though, I know others who already have a clear idea, if not plan, what to do with their lives.
Well, I am not decided yet. But, naturally, I have dreams. Maybe my dreams will turn out to be idealistic ideas of somehing that doesn't exist in reality, or just
nonsense, or else, I will not know that until I try to fulfill them.
SO here is some sort of list, that should cover most of the things I dream
about while sitting over my english h
omeworks... duh!
Places I'd like to visit:
- Sweden
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- Norway
- Finland
- Denmark
- America, especially NYC
- Canada
- Italy
- Croatia
- Portugal
- Greece
- Ireland
- Iceland
- Russia
- China
- Japan
and: Great Britain and France and the Netherlands, although I already went to London, Cornwall, Paris and Enschede, but they are definately worth a second visit. Plus, I've never been to Scotland and to cities like Amsterdam.
Languages I'd like to speak fluently:
- English (well I'm close to, hehe)
- French (unfortunately lost almost everything I learned)
- Swedish (ah, I'm so jealous of my father who is fluent in swedish, it's such a lovely language)
- Italian (again, my father...)
- danish
- well if there is any time and brain left, haha: finnish- very funny language
- oh, as we are being megalomaniac right know, I think portuguese is a very beautiful language, too
Things I want to do right after school:
- work, hehe
- do something social, such as helping build infrastructure somewhere...
- travel
- be crative, like paint, draw, ... etc.- things that I always want to do, but never find the time to realise
All the other things that stalk my head:
I want to...
- be able to sew like ... well let's say Miss Coco Chanel, haha. Seriously, I have a very strong need to sew atm.
- learn yoga- and greet the sun
- sell clothes that I designed and sewed
- ahh, find love, the one and only person to grow old with (here I am very romantic! :D - indirect appeal to the male public between, let's say 17 and 27 to send proposal- ah! and don't forget the photos! haha...)
- sit in the front row of a fashion show, like Chanel, hehehe... Karl? Did you hear that??!
- read all tthe book on the world... mhh, except for all sorts of bibles and stuff...
- last thing, that's gonna have to happen during my lifetime: start an atheistic revolution- yep I'm gonna do that, be warned, people! hahaha...
duh, this list is getting ridiculous (how do you spell this damn word?)... tell me what are you' dreaming of!!
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2009/08/28
I'm back
I'm back, I'm back.
Please forgive me the lack of posts lately! I was on holiday for more than three weeks, came back just on last sunday, than had to do a lot of preperation for school, which started yesterday. Already, I am fully covered in homeworks, tasks, duties... Again, a lot of stress!
However, I will take the time and provide my three gorgeous readers with the best I can.
Check out my tumblr, too!!
2009/06/27
patiently nervous
sorry, sorry, forgot where I found this picture... if anybody who sees this knows/ is the owner of this wonderful picture, let me know and I'll credit him/ her/ you. Sorry again- and thanks.This so reminds me of summer holidays, vacation, with my family, former times... aah and I love these over-the-knees.
Only two and a half weeks ill summer holidays finally start.
2009/06/16
Supermassive Black Hole
Today I completely messed up the math test (which was predictable, but I felt so sorry for my sister as she learnt three days with me), then went shopping with my mum (yeah- definately: frustration). I buyed a vintage skirt, ten fortune cookies (haven't looked what my future will bring... probably gonna do that AFTER the math test is given back... ah- and english, too... :s) and a new notebook for school (can't run away, eh?).
Okay, now I should be writing an essay for religion or working on my art project, but, oh, I hate school.
And I'm not interested in Jesus....
So this is what I do insead... looking at the probably most beatiful pictures in the world... haha!
title: Muse
2009/06/12
2009/06/10
Pokerface
via dawntroopers
Once pain is inflicted, it can never be erased by anything or anything, it only can be covered under the layers of lies or different truths, bit it remains there and crawls out when we don't expect it. And we are thrown out of our course through the universe, lost, lost, lost.
2009/06/06
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