//NADA, NIENTE//

I just lost a reader and I don't recieve any comments here. I'm not looking for popularity but I want to share my thoughts, what I like, etc. and getting no response at all is not that motivating as you probably can imagine. I'm thinking of giving this thing a rest because I don't want do produce another irrelevant blog on the Internet.

picture via http://her0in-chic.xanga.com/

//NOTHING OF ME IS ORIGINAL//

These 'works', if you can call it that, were created last month when I was playing with my new photo manipulation programme "Live Quartz" which I downloaded from the Internet before. It was free which means that it isn't the best one by far, but nevertheless, it's fun, simple, and sometimes all you need to waste your time when you should be learning or buying presents or something trivial like that.

Enjoy, or don't, and leave your thoughts!

Note: the pictures I used do not belong to me.

Picture 1:

via Magazine: Dazed and Confused, June 2009; Editorial: Chic Surrealism Takes Dolce & Gabbana Into The New Season & The Awesome Abbey Lee, Face Of Gucci, Models The Autumn / Winter Collection; Photographer: Karim Sadli; Model: Abbey Lee Kershaw and via http://hubblesite.org/gallery/album/

Picture 2 and picture 3:

Sorry, I just can't say, if you are/ can ID the owner/ photographer of these photos, please contact me (see below) and I will credit you/ him/ her or remove the photos.

Picture 4:

via http://weheartit.com/entry/791244 and http://hubblesite.org/gallery/album/

Picture 5:

via http://www.latinamerika.onlinehome.de/peru/peru_start.htm and via http://hubblesite.org/gallery/album/

Picture 6:

via http://weheartit.com/entry/493493 and via http://hubblesite.org/gallery/album/

//SHAKESPEARE//

It took me a while to produce this. I've been thinking about how to put this thought into words.

This is about God. I keep thinking about this human phenomen. I am an atheist. I can't say there is no God for sure because I can't prove that. But you can't prove the opposite either. So I say, I believe, I assume, I decide for myself that there is no God. No supernatural power, that created humanity, the plants and animals, and the world we all live in. I'm convinced, that all there is the nothing but the roaring, hustling, whistling sound of the silent universe. Nietsche called atheism nihilism. But to me, that's not right. Life may be a hopeless chaos, a coincidence, just a weird result of the endless evolution. People, societies, emotions, burdens, relations, beginnings, and endings, It is terrible, it is hard, for some all the time, for others now and then.

It is a well-known fact that the amount of religious people in developing countries is generally higher than in industrial nations. Life is hard there, in the developing countries, I heard. The hardes, probably. Having a hard life, people ask themselves "Why?". And to this question, only God is the answer. You couldn't list all the things that lead to the circumstances a person finds him/herself in that very moment he/ she wonders about life, but it would be the correct thing to do.

God describes every human's flaw. It is giving a reason to all this chaos, a destination, and taking fear, having company in the loneliest moments, and holding out hope for everyone, justifiying, and encouraging,

God is also accepting that there are no answers to everything, especially to the question about God. What/who is God? It is not a common question in that sense. People tend to accept that God is simply something beyond their perceiption. And they don't go further. This is what keeps God alive.

But being reasonable, and accepting the evolution theory although we can't explain eeverything here, is what Nietzsche calls the hardest thought. It means realising that humans are nothing but a coincidence, a sudden occurance on the surface of the earth, a triviality. We are not intended, planned, created, destined. We are here. And I assume that almost every religious person would find him/herself lonely, confused, lost, broken, empty, guideless and worthless.

But I say: this is nothing to worry about! For me, it is OK to be worthless, to be a meaningless being on earth's surface. I don't mind being an invisible spot in the big picture of time and space, because to a few wonderful people I am a valuable person and to some people I am the whole picture. And this is why I don't need a God.

The idea of God has shown to be unneceessary. We need to be honest with ourselves and to others and we need to admit that we are afraid. We need accept and we need to give help. And we need to remember that there are others around us who share the same miserable lonelyness and desperation, that they are asking the same question. We need give shelter and hope to others, we need to eat and make love. This is all we can do. We need to give up God.

When I see the sea, the sun, a beautiful river or a beautiful person, when I experience love or luck, I do not think of God. I think: What a beautiful coincidence!

picture via http://myminddroppings.wordpress.com/2009/10/09/almost-nobody-truly-believes-in-god/ (seems to be an interesting article btw, although I haven't read it fully yet)

//WHY//

..does nobody comment here?

mhhh...

//THE SEPTEMBER ISSUE//

I watched this film (The Semptember Issue) yesterday.

All I basically knew about Anna Wintour before was what I snapped from the discussions about the film The Devil Wears Prada which is based on Lauren Weisberger's novel. Lauren Weisberger was, as you might know, Anna Wintour's assisant and allthough the resemblance of Andy Sachs and the author herself was never officially confirmed it is widespread that there must be some truth about the whole story. And it makes sense, doesn't it? How could anybody be successfull in such a job as chief-editor of the US-Vogue, if he/she were not a hard, cold and demanding person? And doesn't the business itself cries for such an person?

The world of fashion is unjust, superficial, decadent, authoritarian, inhibited, luxurious. It is about money, diszipline and favor. And luck is a dominant part of every aspect. So what reasonable person who values equal rights, fair working conditions and freedom, who can accept and tolerate different opinions, could make this industry work? Right, I don't have an immediate answer, either.

As I am judging here, I have to say that I don't have an overall overview nor any reliable insider information. So, I shouldn't actually have an opinion, I am not supposed to have one and I am sure not competent enough for it.

But the thing is, I have one. And wether it's a stupid and irrelevant one, that's for the competent ones to decide. Because I am sitting at the end of it. I would be the one buying Vogue, if I liked that magazine.

Well, what I know about the fashion industry is that poor children in developing countries have to work on some pair of high-fashion brand jeans, otherwise their

family wouldn't be able to survive. And those children can not go to school, to learn and to make their life less miserable in the end because they would find a better-paid job.

So I know that the fashion industry is exploiting children in developing countries and takes away from them their education and their future.

And I know, that the editors of magazines such as Vogue waste inconceivable much money for editorials and shoots and other semi-important things, that won't even be fully published in the end because the hair looks strange or something... Honestly? Does it matter? It sure doesn't matter to the child sewing the jeans in Bangladesh that the hair looks strange, but I' m positive that it matters to it how many years it's family could have lived free of care with the money that was spent on those photographs that ended up in the trash.

And: Would the ordinary fashionista really notice the strange hair at all? I bet, she wouldn't!

See, with Vogue it's the same like with religion. There is way too much respect for it because the system is working so well. Pray to God, or pray to Vogue, it is, when it is stylized, the same concept: The fashion industry is your religion. The Vogue (especially the US-Vogue) is your church. You pay for it, and with it (church/Vogue), you're in the system, you're in the group. You only get God when you go to church. Those two are bent together. The God of the fashionistas would be Anna Wintour in that case. She rules it all. Designers show her their collections before they show them on the runway shows. Not very free, mh? Whilst on the other hand, being creative is supposed to be the expression of one's personal ideas, feelings, etc, and in my point of view it should be unneccessary to consult anybody else but oneself for that purpose.

Well, back to the church. Fashion is religion, Anna is God, Vogue is the church. Here all fashionistas get to know what Anna wants them to know. And I ask myself:

Why are people letting something like this to be done with themselves? Don't they strive to be as free as possible?

I am not religious and I don't like the Vogue. For several reasons:

First, I don't like the authoritarin character of it. To me, fashion is an art, and when it comes to art, there is no universal opinion about it. There may be a majority and a minority, but what became very clear in the movie The September Issue was, that the US-Vogue is pretty much Anna's personal views, tastes and favourites. But she lets others do the real job for her, she just picks what she likes and is extremely stubborn when it comes to different opinions. Isn't that a shame?? As for me, I think a magazine should have several editors with different opinions equal influence and freedom of dicision-making so that the magazine reflects the variety of designers that want to be noticed and acknowledged.

Second thing I don't like about Vogue is the overwhelming amount of advertisement there is. I must admit, that some advertisement is very well done, but do I have to pay a ridicoulously high price for advertisement that want to lure me into buying something I can't even afford?

Next thing is the fashion industry itself. I woudn't want to buy a magazine that is the support of such an unreal, unfair industry.

I don't consider it very glamourous, wearing a pair of jeans that defrauded some young boy or girl of his education.

So no, I don't like Vogue. I am really interested in fashion but I won't support this cruel system. I think it is a shame and I wonder, why it seems that nobody is aware of what they are doing...

What especially stroke me watching the film yesterday was the absolute paradox the fashion industry bears.

"Fashion is not about looking back. It's always about looking forward. ", Anna said, and she's right. All fashion people are concerned with are the next trends, the next seasons, the new colours, etc, yet the fashion industry itself remains one of the most backwards and fixed institutions, just like the church.

Oh, and btw, Anna Wintour wore Prada at the premiere of The Devil Wears Prada...

Picture sources:

http://www.telegraph.co.uk/fashion/3545558/Is-there-life-after-Vogue-for-Anna-Wintour.html

http://miaamber.wordpress.com/2009/08/27/stylelist-tweets/

http://blog.modelmanagement.com/2009/08/21/taller-skinnier-younger-where-are-the-limits/

http://stylecanvas.wordpress.com/page/3/

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/eat-the-press/2007/03/08/americas-next-top-pluss_e_42962.html

http://community.livejournal.com/foto_decadent/1854904.html#cutid1

http://pakalolostyle.wordpress.com/2009/08/20/the-september-issue-pat-mcgrath/

EDIT: people I was not that far a way with my statement! We have the first 'confession': click

EDIT #2: found tha illustration today, haha, I obviously wasn't the first who came up with this idea...

//THE END OF THE WORLD//

So many posts today, haha, more than 100- yaaay. Not that I seriously feel good now or something, I've been actually wasting the time I could have needed for my studies and homeworks and crap like that! But I've totally feeling like wasting time today! Like I was spoiled with, pretending I had hours and hours of leisure, pretending I din't care. Sometimes I just need to throw my time outta the window. Yeah, richt. Away with it. Let somebody else pick it up and learn how to read and write.

From time to time, I take a dose destructivism and say fuck you to the world. Ha! What a revolutionist am, I, huh? (...not... I'm depressed that's all. And I have to stop rambling.)

Good night, sleep tight, alright?

//FEELING BLUE//

Aw, I don't know whats wrong with me.

Today I lost my belief in friendship. Why, you ask? Because the people who pretend to be friends are no more than jealous, egoistic and dishonest children who take themselves way too serious. That sounds so arrogant, and I might consider changing my mind about it... some time... when school is over- but it's true.

I'm not a party popper but I don't see the sense in overindulging oneself, behaving like a bitch and ending up in the corner, vomitting. Now this is uncool, heh? Well, is it really such a great feeling, not knowing what really happened that friday night but telling everybody els how tanked you were?

//Hi Sofie!//

Ha! I was trying to drown my grief about school and stuff with coke this afternoon (and didn't succeed, actually), when I saw I got a new reader and it seems probably totally uncool/ unproffessional for a blogger, freaking out and welcoming every new reader, but they are a rare appearance on my blog, so: Hi Sofie! :)

//Idontgoto//

This could have been my idea (damn it!). I love these sweaters. It's so absolutely anti showing-off-the-university-my-parents-pay-for, but so harmless, cute, with humour. I love them! I am very tempted to buy one, but they are not that cheap...

Please check out their lovely website here: http://www.idontgoto.com/home.html

Chandeliers

look very good in simple white rooms

via google, http://stylelifephotos.blogspot.com/, and my tumblr (see there for more sources)

I love outsiders and I will be an outsider forever.

I've had some trouble blogging lately, not only because I am comletely stressed out and hardly find the time to post something, but also because I thought about the blogging itself a lot.

If you don't want your blog to be about your personal style and life, it is hard to run a decent fashion blog. There are already quite a few other sites and blog that inform fashion- interested people about what runs on the runway, what is going on, where and with who.

So I find i kinda lame and unnecessary to post something about the current runway shows and the ones I especially like. Plus, everybody does this and it is not original anymore. Blogging has become so popular, is so wide-spread, everybody seems to have a blog and much of them are so much alike they don't mean anything anymore.

As for me, I always need a purpose or a reason to do something. When I started this blog I wandet to show and share my personal opinion on random fashion iems, runway shows, etc. But today, I feel exhausted of all this and don't see the point in it anymore.

Trends, must-haves, no-gos- almost every blog talk about the same things. Doesn't that bores you guys? I want to see original, astonishing, funny, remarkable, interesting stes and I want to be one myself. I am absolutely against mainstream and I will struggle against it.

So, I am 'planning' changes around here- as you can see (hear) I removed the ipos again, I am still not sure wether I like it here or not... tell me what you think!

xoxo

New new new

I guess everybody of my oh so much readers has noticed that something is different around here.

Tell me wether you like it (hope you do) or not.

xoxo

Take

sources unknown

Be mine...

all of them.

via monjolie.blogspot.com

Supermassive Black Hole

Today I completely messed up the math test (which was predictable, but I felt so sorry for my sister as she learnt three days with me), then went shopping with my mum (yeah- definately: frustration). I buyed a vintage skirt, ten fortune cookies (haven't looked what my future will bring... probably gonna do that AFTER the math test is given back... ah- and english, too... :s) and a new notebook for school (can't run away, eh?).

Okay, now I should be writing an essay for religion or working on my art project, but, oh, I hate school. 

And I'm not interested in Jesus....

So this is what I do insead... looking at the probably most beatiful pictures in the world... haha!

title: Muse

Weight of the world

I may be alone with this poinion, but ballet is so sexy!

Nijinski, pictures from google

... and beautiful...